7 days ago started a period of freedom for me that, despite some rough moments and heartfelt desires, I am grateful for. I needed this break. If only things could be different. But maybe someone is actually lending me a hand. i have broken down and prayed but maybe I have prayed for the wrong things. Are YOU helping me? I am a devastated man. I think I have been sad and broken and lost for a long time. i am tired and fragile and need kindness and love and understanding. I need someone to listen or I need to learn to not care. That would be great for me. I want to not care.