But I miss her. I miss her so much it burns. It rips my heart out. Makes me want to scream. Makes me cry. I feel like something is burning me from the inside. I can’t even admit it. It’s so wrong. I am trying so hard to do what is right, but I can’t even come close.
I wish I had never met her. I wish she would leave my heart. I wish i hadn’t grown as close to her. Or let her slip away. Can I admit that here? I have no choice. I need to talk about it. It’s killing me. My entire existence is filled with her. I can’t cut it out. I would if I could. i hate it. I HATE IT!!!! What am I going to do. I know we’ll never be together. Why can’t I accept it? Why am I obsessive? Why am I one who can’t let things go?