I lost my key long ago. The words escape my, I can not pass without them and yet I wandered hoping that I would find my way again. I have been wandering. For some time. It is late and I do not have the depths to pull from and the morning draws near as I […]
I am beginning to realize that my losing my mind is not the worst thing in the universe. It may in fact be the saving grace for my life. I just wish I could let go and stop. Why do I follow something that has questioned everything I exist for? Why do they both exist […]
The mistake is often made to think a tear a sign of weakness. Believe me, no one wants to see me cry. I worry the anger is so deep I fear myself most days. I know what comes next, I just question if I have to go through all the monumental failures repeated by so […]
Monday, November 21, 2011
I wonder how long it will be before you return. There are no signs of your presence but that does not mean you were not careful to leave  any traces unknown. So I write, and maybe it will be read. Or I write in and in a years time neither of us will know who […]
Thursday, January 6, 2011
You always thought that I created rules for the sake of rules. This land started with a set of rules. They were not for the sake of their own being but rather to push us farther in. Fuck the outside. No one cares, why should we? Who knows when color (maybe three) will bleed all […]
Thursday, February 4, 2010
…but I find that my mind is running as if it were 5am on the third day, maybe the second, by this point if it were when my mind thinks that it is then I would be lost in time and wouldn’t really care less about a clock, but rather just a bed, until I […]
I don’t know why I would think I had not been affected, that my shell would remain in tact through all of this, but I realized, even with much work to do, that saying the words came a bit too late. I thought I was free of it, I thought I protected myself. But I […]