And I am not quite sure if I want to look up and find that the house is on fire or that my mind is telling me that my days are numbered. I worry easily that I will end before the story does. And yet I sit here and do nothing to put the finishing […]
Monday, November 21, 2011
I wonder how long it will be before you return. There are no signs of your presence but that does not mean you were not careful to leave  any traces unknown. So I write, and maybe it will be read. Or I write in and in a years time neither of us will know who […]
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
I turned around the other day and realized that the one who looked so unfamiliar was me. There is so little left of who I am that I fear I wouldn’t know me if I ran into myself on some forgotten path lined with the life I betrayed to become the nothing that I am. […]
I am stuck. And I need help. I need the divine hand to pull me out. Or to comfort me. To hold me. I lost my touch. I wish I lost my fight. But there is a heart beat in there that keeps me going. Why won’t it let me slip away?
I will not say it here as clearly as I feel it in my heart, and I know that when I was there, I wasted so much time that was mine to waste, but I miss the land that was before, all the fears of the walls falling down, they were not my walls, all […]
Thursday, February 24, 2011
I have no time to be here and that says it all. I despise all but three, sometimes two, and can not lessen the pain on my heart. I have no time to feel bad, no time to frown, no time but to move forward. Maybe the light is at the end of the tunnel […]
Thursday, January 6, 2011
You always thought that I created rules for the sake of rules. This land started with a set of rules. They were not for the sake of their own being but rather to push us farther in. Fuck the outside. No one cares, why should we? Who knows when color (maybe three) will bleed all […]
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Artie: Day 6 The well of hell enflames me today. Saddens me. Destroys me. How did I end up here again? What I really need is day 6 to become day 600. Day 6,000. PLEASE. Is anyone listening? Is there anybody there? Why can’t I just stop the world, freeze it… and just think. Everything […]
I can’t tell you how much I hate my life. Hate hate hate. I fucking hate it. HATE IT!!!! HATE HATE HATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There’s now another link in the chain. A huge link and a weight. Sometimes I think I ask God for something and he says ‘Go fuck yourself’ and gives me the exact opposite. […]
A: The ‘Well of hEll’ is an actual place I go, much like this place. Except there I have to hide. I sneak in, peek around and leave. I’m never there very long and if I get caught, well… it wouldn’t be pretty. It tears me up when I go there… sometimes. It depends on what […]