Will it be a complete day? What happened to me last night. My body rejected everything I had eaten. It seems like a dream. Or like I was drugged. day four. day four. day four. Shut out again. And this time it was dark. darker than normal. there was certainly something afoot.
I need rest. I have let myself get too tired, too hungry, too sad. Can I get through an entire day?
Damn it. I hate this… game? No, it’s not a game. But it’s something. And I hate it. I always lose. How long will it go? You’ve GOT to be kidding me… hold on. It’s happening NOW. Can you effin believe it????!!! 11:51 am. Wow. Are there holes tearing in the walls of this place? […]
If I think about him less, does it mean he never existed? Am I that naive to think that no one heard the tree? No one? Really? Not one single living creature? Are we that big headed to think the question is even valid? Existential bullshit is what that is. Really, no one? I hear […]
Instead of counting the days on end, try just subtracting the days that you don’t want. The good days will add up quicker. Third day is good, fourth day not so much, 4 minus 1 equals 3. Fifth day works, 5 minus 1 equals 4. And do not mistake chains for a heavy weight in […]
Not to hit anything hard, so I didn’t. My hand still hurts from the last time.
But I think I may be going insane. And I don’t mind.
It may be a while before I start the counting over
How long can I keep this up?
It begins again. I used to find people in the depths of the night to talk with and now it is all over. Why am I the one standing alone? Not moving on? I really did think there was something there. A secret little world of my own. Maybe that’s just what I crave. Something […]