even here, in this place. Were they always here? No. I don’t think so. But as of today they are. This is not the escape it used to be. Not at all. I want to break these chains, but they are growing. Quickly. Weighing me down.
Wondering about day 8 and 9.
This is the third day since the clock began again. THREE DAYS!!!!! Not even three whole days. This day just started. It feels like months. Honestly. I have no sense of time. And when this particular clock starts, strange things happen to my perception. I can’t expound upon it. Not yet. Not sure even how […]
Thank you for opening the door. I feel a bit more free actually. My perception of this place has changed. It is still a refuge however. It has rained in the place for what I think is over 12 years. The cloud follows me and I wont ask it to go away. I hate it. […]
In the other land it has rained for 18 of the past 16 days, or something of that count. It even rains wher eit should not. So now I look for the rain when i should be working and spend my time holding it off, or at best watchign to make sure it does not […]
And i think we should know clearly who is saying what. I am getting confused. We are merging in ways I never thought we could. the mystery of this place has vanished for me and with it some of the allure. I liked the misty feeling. The fog. Now, it is too clear. We need […]
The past three days have accumulated and I am back in the turmoil I was before. And I need to keep quiet about it. that’s part of the problem I think. i can’t express my self. I can’t explore things like I once did. In almost any area. I am saddened by this. I reach […]
The beginning of the day. Can I get through it without being spotted. Or called to. i think so. I think I am safe for a while. Now my head is actually starting to clear. Just starting. It’s still hazy. i am still lost and confused. i didn’t wander last night. I am rebuilding.
Im holding on. It’s been easier than I thought. In fact, sometimes I even laugh about it.
7 days ago started a period of freedom for me that, despite some rough moments and heartfelt desires, I am grateful for. I needed this break. If only things could be different. But maybe someone is actually lending me a hand. i have broken down and prayed but maybe I have prayed for the wrong […]